Nebraska, here we come!

It has been more of a challenge lately to take one day at a time when the days seem so full of planning and focus on the future.  We’re finding ourselves planning details for when Annelise gets here, that causes me to dream and entertain the idea of what it will be like to see her, touch her, and not have her with me always in my body.  But while we’re making plans for her arrival, we make simultaneous plans for what to do in the event of a stillbirth. I am constantly reminded that I’m part of the planning, but have no actual control over what the outcome will be as far as Annelise’s health.

 Kevin and I are considering delivering Annelise in Omaha, because the thought of a team that sees babies with trisomy 18 on a regular basis instead of just occasionally really appeals to me.  Although, I am happy with the staff that we have met so far at Miller Children’s in Long Beach, we haven’t been able to meet with all of the specialists yet, and so our feeling is that going to get evaluated and talk with the team in Omaha can only help us have a more comprehensive understanding of the issues that we’ll likely face after delivery.  We fly out on Monday!
We’re asking the Lord for wisdom and discernment.  There are pros and cons to both choices, and multiple logistics to deal with if we end up being states away from our house.... but this is the one time we get to see Annelise Faith be born, so I want to be confident that we’ve searched out God’s plan for His little one first, beyond our fears and anxieties about the details.

Side note, I met with the music therapist at Miller Children’s yesterday, and she made a recording of Annelise’s heartbeat💗 .  I ordered a little keepsake bear that will hold the sound box and play her heartbeat, kinda like a build-a-bear.

Here’s another favorite song on my playlist for y’all!

Since I have lots of opportunities to focus on every possible "what-if" that I can think of.... I appreciate the reminder that God is greater and stronger than anything that can happen to us in this life, and that He will be magnified and is already being glorified through the life of this baby girl, no matter if she spends all her days in Heaven, or if we get to know her here and share life with her.